This day was about replacing mental roadblocks with healthy bridges.
I was headed out to teach art in a lavender field. Wasn't sure what paint students would bring so had to wear something they might accidentally get onto my clothing. Felt artsy, calm, cool.
Liked the colors on my skin.
Perceived as: Authority. Friendly, An artist. A qualified teacher.
Roadblock #1: People's Opinions
"I don't know how to look! How do I express my own style and yet be in style?!"
Action to take when that thought comes up: See it as an adventure to find fair trade fashion and have a plan so it's not overwhelming.
#2 Body Confidence
My aging, sagging everything. Belly, thighs, chin. The struggle to fit my body when I have two different body types in one.
Action: I will explore new ways to fit more movement into my day and watch my body respond to self care.
#3 Money
I don't feel like fashion is a "deep" enough investment. I am not a deep enough investment.
Action: "Holy Spirit, please mentor me in how YOU would like to clothe me."
Commitment:
How committed am I to change? Um. I'm overwhelmed. Baby steps here, girl. If I go hard faced and legalistic, I will quit. And then deal with guilt and shame not only over what I'm wearing but also my lack of ability to change my heart and mind.
Reframe: This can be fun. Wild rides mess up your hair and clothes. But that's ok.
I'm keeping myself accountable by focussing on the JOY, not the determination.
How will you reward yourself? (arrrgh.... sounds so guild ridden. Not sure what to do with it. I will have the JOY of journaling the process into freedom.
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