Updated: Dec 10, 2019
Today was the day it all caught up with me.
But I am getting better.
After a radical hysterectomy to protect me from the risk of cancer, and the removal of that mass the size of a cantelope...yeah, well... The doctor said that being tired is a real thing to expect. At first I could only stay awake half an hour. Then, I could stay awake for two hours. Gradually, that reversed and I only had to nap two hours.
Now I can go maybe two weeks without having to totally crash.
Today was a mandatory crash day. And I did nothing.
I kept wanting to be productive, but I did absolutely nothing. I slept.
These days always start with fatigue and maybe guilt. Regret.
Being tired can do that.
I started to write a song. It talks about what we forget. We forget to dream as if our dreams can happen.
And I wonder if just maybe, I'm beginning to understand what Joel was talking about.